I had a fresh thought today: when I return to making things, it doesn’t need to be full steam ahead. This entire time I’ve had it in the back of my mind that at the end of the thirty days, I’d go back to doing almost exactly what I’d been doing before. However, I can…
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Resting, #16
Today I recorded some rain and wind chime sounds. It was very peaceful. I’m so used to taking photos that I often under appreciate sound. Recording sounds is different from taking photos. There’s no composition, framing, or focus. It’s just the sound and my desire to keep it.
Resting, #15
Not making things is starting to feel like a weird limbo. I didn’t realize how much of my daily routine revolved around it. Earlier today I wanted to download my saved memes from Pinterest and I couldn’t find an easy way to do it. So I was like, “I’ll whip up a quick Python script…
Resting, #14
During the last two weeks, I’ve had more ideas for things to make than in the past few months. It’s odd because it’s a reversal: I normally have one idea, make one project, and grind in the interim between ideas. Now I have a pile of ideas and I can’t act on any of them.…
Resting, #13
I’ve been reading my early blog posts and it’s funny that I always say “See you tomorrow!” I guess it felt natural then. I mostly stopped saying it because, well, I’ll always see you tomorrow! At least for the foreseeable future. I’m almost at one year on this blog and it feels good to look…
Resting, #12
Rest is enabling me to operate in situations in which I’d normally be trying to cope. I get a new situation and instead of responding with worry and anxiety, I can remain at rest and then figure out what to do. I’m starting to think that every situation can be useful.
Resting, #11
I’ve been thinking about the projects I want to work on at the end of the thirty days and I want to make a new version of Spray Paint with more features. I would update the Gamemaker version, but I’ve hit something of a ceiling in Gamemaker. The “surface_getpixel” function is slow and I need…
Toki Pona in Minecraft
Earlier I was bored and aimlessly scrolling through settings in Minecraft. I clicked on languages and, feeling a whim from the option for Shakespearean English, I scrolled down and there was Toki Pona! I never expected to find Toki Pona in Minecraft, but there it was. I enabled it and was immediately disoriented by not…
Resting, #10
More rest. I feel a constant steadiness, that no matter where I am or what I’m doing, I can always choose rest. If you had told me that a few years ago I would’ve been like, “That doesn’t make any sense.” But it does now.
Resting, #9
It’s odd to have a different response to situations which normally make me anxious. Sometimes I’m like, “Should I be stressed out now?” I’m definitely still working on it, but it feels really good to be on my way.
PS: I did spend a few minutes today reading the Gamemaker and Godot documentation, but I didn’t actually make anything.
Resting, #8
I feel like my daily life has become a rest training ground: every hour I get new situations to practice rest.
Resting, #7
More progress: I feel like my peak non-restfulness is less than yesterday. Maybe I’m over analyzing this xD
Resting, #6
I didn’t spend much time today actually resting, but I feel like I’m inching toward a constant state of restfulness.
Resting, #5
Today I found something important and I actually started to rest.I found two podcast episodes by Graham Cooke: The Practice of Rest and The Practice of Rest – Part 2. I haven’t previously posted about being a Christian, probably in part because I don’t like a lot of things which are labeled as Christian, and…
Resting, #4
Today I imagined. I lean back on my bed and the wall next to my head fades away. The room around me tumbles into space. The air is fresher than a new rain. I look out into a galaxy of stars. They swirl and dance in color. I reach out and swim among them.
Resting, #3
It feels like I’m returning to things I left when I started focusing on making things. I didn’t leave them entirely, but their importance diminished. Like actually playing. Not games or pre-built experiences, but real play. Play which is only limited by my imagination. Physical things can help start it, but it lives in my…
Resting, #2
It’s really nice to be able to experience things and not feel like I need to be looking for inspiration. Earlier it was raining and it was great to just experience it. I didn’t need to find something more or feel like I needed to remember it as a fragment to a future puzzle.
Resting, #1
Yep, I rested today and didn’t create things. It feels like the part of my brain responsible for making things is finally taking a break.